Update..

I started my Humira shots on Tuesday.....blaaahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
It is an experience I have a hard time articulating. I'm not one for digging this deep or opening up my weaknesses but I'll just pretend this is my health journal for my eyes only. So the shots come by overnight mail. In a perishable box...it has a small cooler and ice packs inside...super weird. Humira has to stay refrigerated. So it is a shot for my auto-immune issues.It basically attacks my over active immune system that is attacking and eating away my joints, bones & muscles. Side effects including; nervous system problems, nausea, feeling sick or weak, lowers immune system, dizziness....and blah more I'm too tired to list.

The first 24 hours tingling sensation and weakness in muscles. The next 48 hours nausea, dizziness, headaches, flu like symptoms. I actually feel better today. Still not 100%. My last 1 a week shot made me sick for 4 days. Not worth it!

So the actual shot itself is hard, cause of a huge phobia, I try to relax while Scott ices and swabs my hip, still cant relax, he jabs the needle in and it seems like forever.....then it starts to really hurt...but still not done...so not relaxing yet...finally pulls out then my leg starts to tingle and go numb moving up to my arm and other side of body.....fighting the urge to ball like a baby...cause I am too proud to cry....plus fear of side effects. So overall my drama mama moment. The deep rooted version; I don't look sick, but this just affirms it. It makes me feel old or even worthless. I know these are weird emotions but I hate relying on meds & doctors. I love all natural healing and herbal remedies. Don't get me wrong I am more than grateful for modern meds and the time I was born....I could be in a wheelchair, dying at 40. I'm not cause of these meds so I am grateful. I just hate feeling weak and being sick inside.

A NEW ME
(as per friends request)I made a commitment to take better care of me. I went into the doc last month....its been a while....and I asked him to check my blood....just a hunch. Yep cholesterol 317...and others high as well. So I had to change my diet drastically.
I try to walk for 30-45 a day. It is really hard to get out. I have to force myself to move. It hurts to work out but I know its good for me. I have lost 3lbs and 3inch this week.
Things I changed;
-cut out the pop~alternatives; 100% juice, water, green drink or sparkling water
-cut out dairy~alternatives; rice milk, IF i eat cheese 1/2 the fat swiss or mozzarella-(cheddar too much fat and cholesterol) watch out for that soy ladies it messes with female hormones and causes depression and breast cancer. (soy beans are fine..they are not processed) no butter or egg yolks
-lower salt content~alternatives; garlic, garlic powder, onion, chili powder, cilantro, parsley etc. check the labels don't buy seasonings with sodium or msg. Add herbs and spices instead of salt. They have cleansing properties your body needs.
-no red meat~alternative....death! I love steak. really lean pork, chicken, lots of fish.
-No white stuff~alternative;whole grains baby! Whole wheat bread, pastas(pastas in moderation still-like 1 a week) brown rice, home made popcorn, & rice crackers
-LOTS OF FIBER-flax meal in everything, (even substitute for eggs and oil in baking recipes) lots of green veggies-organic is always best even if frozen-or just clean your produce VERY well-BEANS, get excited about high fiber and protein filled kidney beans in salad or alone, black beans with mexican food, mmmmmm hummus!
-And of course-MOVE; it doesn't have to be a big ordeal. Just moves 3-4 different times for 10 min. When you feel more comfortable add another 10. To prevent bone damage use weights with every ten min. Use house hold items....cans, water, tools. Just get your heart pumping!
-And I am all for different herbs & teas :)

What new changes have you committed too?
What has worked for you?